I believed
I believed in the way you called my name
I believed how you’d tell jokes with that smile
I believed when you’d let me help with dinner
By cutting fresh rosemary that was uncomfortably sticky
I believed the days you walked me to school
On mondays when the grass was freshly cut
I believed that memories were easier to recall
I wanted to believe when wed have to stay
Upstairs all night as you accused her of cheating
I wanted to believe how your jokes never seemed
To be lighthearted anymore
I wanted to believe when “don’t make him mad”
Became a human necessity
I wanted to believe when every restaurant
We went to had to have good beer
I wanted to believe how the floor
Became egg shells with no shoes on
I don’t believe when you say
That i don’t love you if i say no
I don’t believe how who i love
Was a fact ignored like it wasnt there
I don’t believe that you only seem happy
Or proud when my brother is around
I don’t believe how a gift became an act
Of apologizing
I don’t believe when someone yells at me
I immediately start crying
I don’t believe how Im scared of all boys
Because I think they’ll be like you
I don’t believe in dads anymore
I do believe in being sorry for that fact
